Our Little CY!

Today my sweet baby turns 5! I can't believe it's been that long, I know we all say that, but it's true! My life is barely recognizable today from what it looked like when I found out I was pregnant with Cy. We still owned a home and lived in Driggs, Lacey was the only kiddo in school, I was cleaning  houses for work, just got done going to nail school. Matt owned and operated  his flooring business. My Mom was still with us. Lori lived in Minnesota, Michelle and Travis both lived in Blackfoot. It's just nuts. The day Cy was born, was the first time I had to do something hard without my Mom physically there to guide me and pick up my slack with the other 2 kiddos. It was the first time I had to change my emergency contact information. It was the first time I really questioned how I was going to be a Mom without her here!!! I sobbed so hard when they asked if Connie Barton was still a good emergency contact person for me. Here I was 9 months pregnant, hormonal, tired, scared and once again reminded she was gone. Cy was sent to our family to heal our hearts, I know this to be true! I also know the months that my Mom and Cy spent in Heaven together Cy learned so much about my Mom and who she was and what she loved. Cy will ask me all the time about my Mom. She will say things like "How did Grandma Connie know I would love her bear so much Mom?" or "Grandma likes to color too Mom!" It takes me back when she will recall things about my Mom that there is no way she could know about! When Cy was born, she came out with this little red mark on her forehead, at first I was kinda sad thinking oh no, my baby has a birthmark on her face...upon reviewing the mark more, it brought tears to my eyes, her sweet little birth mark is in the shape of a heart. We tell Cy it is where Grandma kissed her right before she came to earth. I believe that with my whole heart! Cy is such a fun, mischievous, smart, loving little girl! She caught on very early in life what teasing was all about! Cy used to love to ask Grandpa for the remote, then run like a mad woman away from him, just because she could! Cy is so excited to be 5 today! She feels so grown up, which she is, and it makes me sad! I feel like it's just going way to fast! I am so honored to be her Mother. She forces me to remember the good things in life! Happy Birthday my sweet Cylie!!