So much change....

Well it's almost been a year since I posted. I was never sure what to say, I didn't want to over share, or alarm any one. So I kept to myself. Let's just say this last year has been a hard one. I learned a lot about my self, my family, my kids and who my friends are. I am still in scary unfamiliar water at times. I am unsure of myself and my choices. I pray to one day know for certain I made the best choice. Sadly I am sure that affirmation won't come until I meet my maker, if it is to come at all. I have learned I may not know everything, but what I don't know or understand I have a great support system that can shed light for me. I am once again learning what wonderful sisters and best friends I have. Becky has been so insightful, never judging, always loving and always team Kim. I am sad to say when she has met adversity in her life I haven't always been around. I am truly grateful that we are so close now. I value her advice and friendship beyond any measure. I was truly blessed when Becky came into my life in the 3rd grade! I have been really wishing I had my Mom's love and guidance this last year. It's been hard not to have her in my corner in a physical sense, I know she is still here, it's just not the same. I am so glad my Sister's have been here for me though. My life would be incomplete without them. As my kiddos and I move forward with our new phase of life, I hope to be able to update more and share our journey. I hope you have all been well. This week is the dreaded hell week. So far, there have been no crying fits of rage or sadness. So as long as we can survive tomorrow, things might start looking up.